• society: Everyone's beautiful.
• society: Don't eat though, you don't want to get fat.
• society: You don't eat? Anorexic freak!
• society: You're a size 4? You're supposed to be a size 0!
• society: You're an A cup? What are you, 8?
• society: You're a C cup? That's my mums size.
• society: You had sex?! @#!*% !
• society: You haven't had sex? Hah, you're frigid!
• society: You don't think you're pretty? Attention seeker!
• society: You think you're pretty? Conceited much?
• society: You believe in gay rights? Homo!
• society: You don't believe in gay rights? Homophobic @#!*% !
• society: You're depressed? Attention seeker!
• society: You cut yourself? Still attention seeking!
• society: You can't go on? How much attention do you want?!
• -someone kills themself-
• society: Oh, they were so beautiful! Society sucks!

Omg, my high school crush just asked me out on a date?

uh,

oh.

okay.

well.

I dunno if I should say yes or not.

I never been on a date before.

It’s gonna be

SUPER AWKWARD.

But,

I guess,

I’ll give it a shot.

I mean, when EVER is this opportunity gonna come up again ?

…exactly.

My Problem is, I think ahead too often. My brain likes to race past the current state of the situation and wants to get to the “good part”.

It’s like, were only at step one but I’m already thinking about step 12.

…And It screws up everything.

My niece told me I need to get a boyfriend, or I’m gonna have to play with my cats.

…welp, better start stocking up on cats.

Really, who gives a f**k if no one else thinks I’m awesome. I think I’m awesome. That’s all that should matter.

I swear to God, when i meet that guy (whoever he may be), I will treat him like a freakin king. Just to say thank you for being there for me after all the bullshit guys had put me through. You know? So, uh, i’ll just like, wait for him here in the meantime i guess. While i concentrate on being awesome.

Hungry as a MF.

Im stitting in the car freaking crying while my mom is in the west indian store. Why? Because i suck that’s why. Anxiety is comsuming me right now. I made a youtube video talking about my problems and i was fine with putting it last night. Im out with my mom today and i think about the video i made and i start silently paniking thinking “i need to take it down NOW.” i feel like ive said to much and people are gonna use it against me. I talked about my issues with being in social situations, and how i possibly have some form of social anxiety. Im great with making yt vids but that one freaked me out. Ive never told everyone all that before. Im even afraid to post this right now. I dont know what to do with myself anymore.